Infrared

I see in infrared tonight

My terror never eased

Vision blurred and longing eyes

With no embracing arms for me

I see by candlelight again

This shadow follows me around

I put the gentle flame out

But its resilience is abound

With flames in full restore

My demons guard the growing glow

Irony, that darkness loves the light

This love affair, my greatest woe

This dark abyss fell in love with me

It comes and whispers every night

How it can’t live without my fear

I love it too, despite my desperate fight

It wraps its arms around me

But there’s no comfort here

Red tears drip silently

Hoping these filters soon disappear

This ever-present chasm

Lulls me into sleep

And meets me in my dreams

To wreck havoc in my mind so deep

It starts with meadows

That are in full bloom

Then rain begins to drizzle

I dance to its offbeat tune

Happiness is short-lived for me

As I’m interrupted by my own mind

Forming storms I can’t escape

What hell is this, it’s so divine

Of the oncoming storm, I stand in awe

I realize my downfall will always be

Seeing a delicate beauty

Even in my own tragedy

I slowly slip from dreaming

Descending down the rabbit hole

This state of mind is no better

Because now it’s dusk and I’m alone

Loneliness bores me a certain trait

I long for night, but the dark I dread

The stars come out, but so do shadows

And once again I see in infrared.